I was feeling soo motivated and then suddenly I just started binging, I couldn’t stop. And I was eating cookies, chocolate, bread, peanutbutter, the worst kind of stuff. The only reason I stopped now is cause my mom came home and I can’t let her see me like that. Now I’m just left here to feel like a disgusting failure. I was doing so good today, why does this always happen??
I drank some carb blockers now but I don’t think it’ll help much. Agh can’t believe this
I have this one friend that’s like perfect, so perfect it’s unfair. And I just saw that the guy that I’ve been talking to and who I like veryy much is friends with her on facebook. I know it sounds stupid but the problem is she knows how perfect she is so she take millions of pictures, some that’s a bit revealing, which she posts on facebook and obviously he can see them. This makes me feel incredibly insecure and depressed, cause I mean I can’t compete with that.. I’m nothing but a fat loser compared to her
He lives in another city, but he’s been planning for a while to move to the city where I live, which I’m really excited about.But today he told me that it’s time and that’s he’s moving soon and instead of being excited, all I could think about was No.. You can’t come yet, I’m still fat.. FML
So my mom and step-dad and I decided to start on Monday and do this diet together. I went on this diet before and lost 8 pounds in just 2 weeks so I’m really excited to start.
The only problem is they decided to buy all the yummy things to eat this weekend before starting the diet. And I just couldn’t resist eating some of it and now I feel really disgusting even though we haven’t started with the diet yet.
Agh I hate this, I just shouldn’t have eaten anything I’m just a failure.